Good Bye Ceylon. Heart = Broken

 

The past week has been horrible.  We lost our beautiful, sweet Ceylon to kidney failure this past Thursday.  We did everything we could for her over the course of a week but she kept going downhill as soon as she would come off of IV treatment and the pain would come back.  I held her while the vet gave her the injections.  It is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life.  I didn't want her to think that we left her at the vet.  This is going to hurt for a long time.  This came as a complete surprise and it all happened in the span of a week.  She made me a better person and I just cannot believe that Thursday even happened. 

 Spending our last time together at the vet Thursday morning.

I only had 3.5 years with her.  I rescued her from a shelter in New Mexico.  She was 8 when I got her so she was only 11 years old.  We owed her so many more wonderful years.  I feel so incredibly robbed and so sorry for her that this happened to her.  We told the vet that money was not an issue, whatever we could do for her, we would.  But there was nothing else we could do with out causing more pain and she did not deserve that.  If we were to go that route it would have been the selfish one that we did for ourselves and not her.  I owe her so much.  She just kept me company through the Other Half being deployed for five months.  She took good care of me for those five months.  I am lost in our house without her. 

She was the sweetest kitty I have ever known with the most personality of any kitty I have ever known.  I am so lucky to have had her in my life, even though our time together was short.  She was my Heart Cat. 

 One of my favorite pictures of us.  She loved to nap with us.  The Other Half's chest was her favorite spot in the world.

We don't have and (will not have) do not want children.  Our animals are our children. Some people just cannot comprehend that but thank you to those that do.  I wish this on no pet owner.  But like a good friend told me the other day that no matter how much losing them hurts a life lived without them is a life half lived.  Rest in peace my sweet, beautiful Siamese friend.